Saturday, May 28, 2011

Kinda in a blogging rut

I just haven't felt like Blogging a lot lately.  A lot of personal stuff is happening in my life right now that I don't fully want to share on my public blog.  I think things are getting a little better day by day, but I'm just praying that they will fully improve as time goes on.  I have been so tired all the time & I feel like I never have enough energy to get the things done I want or need to.  I'm also missing my family like CRAZY.  My twin sister is in Arkansas & will be for our 30th Birthday.  (which is this Monday)  I'm so sad & jealous (lets be honest here) that she gets to go home & see our family over our Birthday.  And, I feel like we should be together on our 30th Birthday.  I've just been feeling really down lately that I won't be able to see my family this weekend & celebrate our Birthday's together.  My sister is my other half & although we fight a lot about stupid stuff, I can't imagine my life without her.  I hope someday within the next couple of years we can move closer to my family.  Some days I don't know what I was thinking moving so far away.  I think I wanted a new adventure & I thought Jason's family would be there for me & be more supportive with Jarrett, but they just haven't.  And, it hurts - my heart hurts.  I love Jason's family, but I'm just not sure they have the same values as mine & I want Jarrett growing up in a Christian home & knowing who Jesus is.  And, having a family that will be there for him & support him no matter what.  I know that families are different & I understand that.  But, you start to look at life in a different way after you have a child & you think of how you want him to be raised & the kind of people you want him to be surrounded with.  I've made wonderful friends out here in Vegas & I'm so thankful for that.  And, we have a WONDERFUL babysitter for Jarrett who is such a blessing.  I'm also LOVING my new job & I love my boss.  But, seeing my family only twice a year isn't cutting it.  I know Jason & I will probably be living here another (almost) 2 years at least.  I'm just praying that God will lead us in the right direction with our future & our lives together. 

So, now that I've expressed some of my "feelings" for the moment...what have we been up to lately?
I had a doctor's appointment & had to take Jarrett with me.  He loved pressing the elevator buttons!  Then, we went to Target & looked around for a while.  We got a BIG green ball.  Jarrett is really into bouncy balls right now.  I also tried on this cute little monkey hat in the dollar bin, but I didn't get it.  He still looked so cute!

Then, we went to Red Mango & got some yogurt.  It was SO good.  I think it is some of the best yogurt I've had here.  They put these little pearl looking things in it & they were filled with mango juice.  How cool is that?  Jarrett loved those.
 Somehow Jarrett finagled his way out of his diaper without me noticing.  His T-shirt was extra long, so I didn't even realize he had taken it off.  Next thing I know he has pee pee'd all over the floor.  And, yes, we are having major tantrums these days when we don't get our way!
 We played outside a little while with his ball & blew some bubbles.  It was really windy though & I couldn't get a lot of pictures.  Doesn't he look cute in his Monsters, Inc. t-shirt :)
 Then, he was sooooooooooo tired & fell asleep in our bed.  He looked like an angel laying there & I had to take a couple of pictures.  He is my sweet angel boy.

Anyways, sorry for the lack of updates & details of what has been going on.  Just keep us in your prayers!  <3 Bon


  1. Bonnie, keeping you in my prayers! Hope you have a great birthday!

  2. Happy Birthday Bonnie! I hope you have a fantastic day and enjoy it :) Keeping you and your boys in my prayers. I definitely can relate in regards to feeling different after you have a child in respect to those who are around them. My in-laws and I don't share the same values either, and it's ROUGH! Keep your chin up Mommy! xo

  3. i'm praying for ya hun!
    i love you..and i'm sorry that you cant be home with your family..that makes me so sad for you.

    we need so skype soon..i'm having,aybe later ontonight!!

  4. I'm sorry to hear that things have been a little rough lately, Bonnie, I hope everything improves soon :)

  5. Praying for you guys :) I know life gets hard sometimes and I totally understand about not having the same connection with my in-laws, mine are way different than my parents and I can only imagine how hard it is being so far away. Hang in there girl!

    Toddler tantrums are exhausting aren't they? Parker can be quite the subborn little man too. This too shall pass . . and I always have to remind myself how thankful I am that he has opinions though they may be exhausting at times - leader qualities for later in life :)

    That yogurt looks amazing! YUMMMM!

    Hang in there darling :)

  6. It's so hard to be away from family - especially on those special days. We live several hours from both sides of our family, so I feel you!

    J looks SO cute in that Monsters Inc shirt. I had to laugh because that is Asher's FAV movie right now. He'll sit and watch the whole thing if I'd let him!

    Happy birthday tomorrow!

  7. Happy 30th birthday!!!! I hope it's special even if you aren't with your family. I really can't imagine how hard that must be. I do understand the differences in families and their values. I deal with the same somewhat. We're the opposite though that we live by my parents' which is a blessing. I pray that ya'll work through everything!

  8. Happy Birthday...praying for you and your sweet family!

  9. Happy Birthday!! I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through a rough time. You & your family will be in my prayers!

  10. Hi Bonnie, Happy Birthday!!! I feel for you about not having family out there for support. I feel similar to you at times, and it hurts your heart as a mom. I'm sorry you are going through some rough stuff. Life is really hard at times, and I know my words won't help, but hang in there. I'll say extra prayers for you. I hope things turn around for you soon. You have such a beautiful little family!